I am at a point where I do not feel happy anywhere that I spend my time. I hate my job, i really do. I feel like I am wasting away there. I have given my final date notice, about three and a half weeks from now, but this just makes the time there drag by even slower. It feels compounded by the fact that I cannot get any return notice from any job applications yet.
The other place I ever really am is home, and I really cannot stand being there either. My roommates have been fighting a lot. They are deciding whether or not to keep dating, and I continuously get dragged into their fights. I absolutely abhor being put into the middle of a fight. I do not mind talking to someone about their problems, but to be placed in the middle so much is really starting to wear at me. As soon as you walk into the apartment, you can feel this tension in the air. Its palpable.
The only place I really find myself enjoying is by her side. And during this last, rather disappointing week of vacation, I hardly got to see her. I just want some quality time with the love of my life, I didn't think that would be so difficult. I love her, and all the frustration is easily worth it, I am just.... wishful that it could be easy for just a little bit.
Also, I am a little pissed off that my favorite band in the world, the Thermals, played in Austin today. This is upsetting because I left Austin YESTERDAY! Ugh.
I miss her. Because I love her so much.
There is a new band I have been following. They are called The Joy Formidable. They're welsh, which is pretty cool. But more importantly, they rock. I like them.
But for now, it's back into the foxhole with a helmet and some hope.
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